Life is absolutely terrifying.
I live in paralyzing fear all the time, am I going to be able to pay the bills next year? Will I be happy? Will I get to live as I want?
The outcomes that could go wrong terrify me to death. Life is so scary if you sit down and think about it.
But… is it?
Is my need to control everything what makes me scared me so much?
A year ago, I was agonizing on my mom’s illness because I wanted to control the outcome, that she would not die, so badly. It wasn’t an option.
But, she died. And everything was okay. The world didn’t end, and life besides missing her, got better.
But now my need to control things is having an effect on my personal relationship.